Elenamary

I went to a bar tonight.  It was a bar on OSU’s campus.  It is a stereotypical frat/sorority bar.

I felt out of place.   Everyone was white.  Not kind-of white, like me,  but very white.  Like Ohio white.  Like blue eyes, blond hair, tanning salon bronzed skin, lots of make-up, middle/upper middle class, Ohio, not-like-me white.  I kept thinking “I will never be that kind of white”.  The white that doesn’t notice there aren’t any people of color around.  The white that feels completely in their element that they will never be questioned on their background.  It was uncomfortable, but it was an interesting social experiment.  No one knew I was uncomfortable.  The men still stared at me lusting to share their nasty bits and STDs.  The women still sized me up as their competition.

It sucked.