I will never be that kind of white
February 17th, 2008 by 
elenamary
I went to a bar tonight. It was a bar on OSU’s campus. It is a stereotypical frat/sorority bar.
I felt out of place. Everyone was white. Not kind-of white, like me, but very white. Like Ohio white. Like blue eyes, blond hair, tanning salon bronzed skin, lots of make-up, middle/upper middle class, Ohio, not-like-me white. I kept thinking “I will never be that kind of white”. The white that doesn’t notice there aren’t any people of color around. The white that feels completely in their element that they will never be questioned on their background. It was uncomfortable, but it was an interesting social experiment. No one knew I was uncomfortable. The men still stared at me lusting to share their nasty bits and STDs. The women still sized me up as their competition.
It sucked.
Matt Says:
February 17th, 2008 at 2:59 am
I’m sure they weren’t nearly as beautiful as you.
Diego Says:
February 17th, 2008 at 1:10 pm
I don’t want to be that kind of “Latino” (for lack of a better umbrella term) who becomes complacent with being the token brownie in the group. I want to be embraced for who I am, and that includes my skin color, my tongues, my thoughts. I will not assimilate further into society. Isn’t being born and raised in America enough assimilation anyway?
I will not lose my language. I will not feel as a part of the group because I am not. I had to work my ass off the even get near the group, and now that I am surrounded by them, I realize I won’t fit in.
Great post.
cindylu Says:
February 20th, 2008 at 4:39 am
I am extremely uncomfortable in the setting you described. Granted, I’ve only been there once (it’s hard to find that in LA or California). Then it wasn’t even all white. I was around my not-white sister and some Pacific Islanders. Still, I just felt out of place. It sucked.
xine Says:
February 20th, 2008 at 3:38 pm
white people from ohio (generalization coming) don’t know that they don’t know what its like to be the “odd person out” They’ve never thought about it because they haven’t had to
Mr. SomeOne Says:
February 27th, 2008 at 1:42 am
Hi. I lusted after you once. I sprung when you talked to me. It was so intense. You were soo cute. Big ol eyes, super smile, funny, major casaba melons that you would present in my general direction. Then you had to go and get all huge and flakey on me and lose that smile. Oh well, no penis bits for you. Funny that, all I wanted to do was trade orgasms for fun, experience, kinks and hotness. Aka: mutual masturbation. No sex proper. Oh well.
You’re mature, your blog can take this post I’m sure ;-] Better and more provocative than the others that’s for sure. Lol.